Quite often, I’m posting pics or happy thoughts about how great life is after losing so much weight. But you know what, it IS hard and will continue to be hard. The ice cream truck just came to work. Again, I did not go. I never eat the same thing as anyone else. People look at me like I am this tower of strength who has so much willpower. (These are new coworkers who have only seen me on the losing way, not the yoyo that I have done my entire life.)
Life post wls is tough. Tons of benefits, but it certainly has it’s tough parts. The way I look at myself, is I am a recovering food addict. My addiction is in a bit of a recovery right now, but it will not always be that way. It might not be in my best interest to adopt a lifestyle different to that. Depending on your issue, your path will be different than mine.
I ate a whole lot of cherries on the weekend. Mindless, eating, because I like to eat. still. I have changed my poison, but it is still there, and will continue to be there. The best thing is being aware of our problems and working through them.
I am figuring out, the more lunch I bring to work, the more I will eat. When I get stressed at work, the first thing I think of it, what do I have to eat. That kinda sucks. It’s true. We are NEVER cured.
Do I want ice cream? Yes! But I would rather spend my calories on something that lasts longer than a bowl of ice cream. (like a latte) It’s a constant give and take!
My ONE goal is to never fixate on the scale being up a few pounds ever again. You know the thoughts, the all day thinking and dread of what that scale said, which inevitably leads to a binge of some kind. I promise myself to stick around my daily calorie limit and think about food in a different way. An egg or a hot chocolate are the same calories. An egg will help me fill up longer. But sometimes I just want that hot chocolate too.
Just some thoughts brewing in my head today.