I called the clinic to find out how long it may be to hear about my gallbladder surgery. She said she had her book open and she was having trouble booking December 5th, and since I was on the phone, if I wanted it? She said it usually would take a few months before I would get a date. SO, my surgery is December 5th. I’m really not nervous. It can’t be worse than the VSG, and even that wasn’t SO bad. (I say that now). I go for my pre-op tomorrow morning. I hope I lose a few extra pounds from the surgery! LOL
I still am very strict on my eating. But I do feel I am smarter than ever before. I am recognizing when I’m eating just to eat, and when I’m hungry. Sometimes I still eat even though I’m emotionally eating though. I haven’t allowed myself treats. I calorie count, and limit carbs to fruit and soymilk.
Today I was 212.6. At times, I think well I should have one treat, but this weight loss will stop and slow down. Surely I can give up one christmas season of treats. As I’ve said before, the nice thing, is a few carrots and dip or an orange fill me up, so I can’t eat that much.
It’s still such a mental game. There is still so much work to do. So what, I’ve lost weight. I’ve done that before. I have to learn how to keep it off. People referred to this surgery as a tool, and they are right. It’s a tool to help me. I still have to put in the work. For me, my hard work is in my eating choices. Some people’s work is exercise. I know someone who still after surgery eats all sorts of crap. Pizza, McDonalds, whatever they want. Sometimes I think, well at least they are learning to eat in moderation and not binge. But, as a former obese person, should you really be eating so much crap all the time? Surely it will come back to haunt you, and regain is a probability. We are not invincible – AT ALL.
With my new job, I am getting more exercise than if I was still in my old job. About 40 mins of walking a day and probably 80-100 stairs. At least I’m doing that.
So, look out for some facebook updates after my gallbladder surgery!