New attention after losing weight

Dr. Yoni Freedhoff, a Canadian doctor posted this guest post on his site today. It’s from a woman who underwent Gastric Bypass surgery and is sharing all the good and negative things that come with it.

Nine months ago, I had a gastric bypass. When I told people what I was going to do, they were shocked. I wasn’t that big. Was I really sure I wanted to do something so drastic? Couldn’t I try just one more time to lose weight? Shouldn’t a gastric bypass be reserved for people who are sick and fat, instead of just sick and tired of being fat?

Here’s my response: the decision to have major surgery with very real consequences was not taken lightly. It took an entire year from the time Dr Freedhoff first suggested it until I was ready to be referred to the program. But once I made the decision, I wanted it to be done with. I wanted my new life to begin.

I did everything right – I researched, I read, I went to a psychologist, I made sure that both my head and my heart were ready for the significant change in my life. I followed every instruction that my surgeon gave me to the letter. And my results have been spectacular.

Pretty good, so far right?!

Still, there is something about my weight loss that upsets me in a fairly fundamental way – I have moved from being invisible to visible, and it is both uncomfortable and enraging.

I read a lot of people talk about this, but for some reason, I do not notice it. I’m sure it’s happening, because it IS human nature. Most people are not overly accepting of MO people. But, I just don’t notice it. Maybe I was oblivious before. Maybe I wanted to be invisible before and don’t want to be invisible now?

There are only 2 instances that stick in my mind, where I have noticed being treated differently. I was at Home Depot once, and had 3 2×4’s in my cart. I was rolling it to the checkout and an older man asked me if I needed help. While it didn’t phase me at the time, it dawned on me that NEVER in my life at Home Depot have I ever been asked for help with my large wood products, and there has been many times I have bought really bulky, awkward things to build with. The other was when I tripped in the summer on my show on the way to the train. I think 2 men kinda came running to see if I was ok. That was a little strange.

Maybe I’m a realist, and just understand how people treat MO people. I just expect to be treated differently, I guess? It doesn’t bug me either. And do you know why? Because I believe it. I think I felt that when I was MO, I didn’t deserve the attention, and truthfully, didn’t want it either! Who knows.

And then there are the well-meaning, the beneficent, the ones who cannot understand what their words mean.

  •  “You look so much younger.. taller… better… prettier… smarter” (that one was tough).
  •  “You’re not going to lose more weight, are you? You’re done, right? Maybe you should eat more – you don’t want to lose too much.”
  •  “I wish I could have that surgery – it’s such an easy way to lose weight.”

I got the last one once. I don’t think she realized what she said until after it came out. I got the “you’re not losing anymore right?” more than a few times. That one made me angry. I felt that they were basically telling me I look ugly, because I was too thin.

Give the article a read. It’s quite good, and like him on Facebook!



My own advocate

My appt with the dietician went pretty good. She thought, for sure I was having low blood sugar issues. She took a look at my diary and suggested that I eat more carbs. Having more well rounded meals may help to level my sugars so I don’t get those episodes. I’m pretty conservative with my carbs. I eat them, but they rarely come from bread products. I recently started buying melba toast. That’s been going alright. Not been bingeing on it.

Usually, I get up at 5:30 am. I eat breakfast at 9:00 am, which is only a yogurt and a coffee. She suggested eating within an hour of waking, and she’s right, I should.


That adds calories for the day. Yesterday, I had 80cal of cheese and 40 cal of melba toast. I’m not sure if I’m comfortable adding that many extra calories for the day. The last 5 days, my scale has been inching up a bit. 150, 151. As I mentioned before, I don’t like that.

I don’t think I’m being too cautious with the scale. I’m being a realist. I know weight gain is possible, especially at my time post op, where the stomach is stretching, and I find I can eat more.

So, I’ve been thinking. Maybe I should be my own advocate, and maybe eating more carbs is not right for ME. It may be right for a textbook case. So it’s my choice. If staying under 150 is important to me, then I should do that. It is important to stabilize my blood sugars, but maybe I have to figure it out in my way.

Only I know just how hard I have worked to get here, and only I know my struggles, and it’s too important to mess that up.


How much can I really eat?

Had a delicious salad out at a restaurant at lunch today. Got really full about half way through. I thought I would share the pics, so you can see, just how much a VSG sleeved stomach really can eat!





So good. Ingredients: marinated kale, baby spinach, blueberries, beets, lentils, quinoa, cranberry, red cabbage, pumpkin seeds, lemon lime and honey vinaigrette.

I took the rest home, so I have lunch for tomorrow!


Passed over by Shape Magazine

Screen Shot 2015-01-11 at 3.14.17 PMI was approached by Shape Magazine in September to possibly take part in a round table discussion on what happens to you after you lose a lot of weight.

You have probably ALL heard about Brooke and what happened when they asked her cover up. That started a wildfire around social media and Shape wanted to do a story on what REALLY happens after someone experiences an extreme weight loss.

They asked if I was interested, and of course I said yes, but in the end, they chose a group of woman that didn’t include me. I was bummed, but I’m sure they had tons of criteria they had to meet and who best spoke to their target audience. It doesn’t discount what I have done, that I know.

It’s made me think though. I was pretty perfect for the round table discussion, but I did not lose my weight through the tradition way. I had weight loss surgery. I could be COMPLETELY wrong, but I think that played a part in their decision.

There is not enough talk being done about weight loss surgery. Many people still think about it as the easy way out. Personally, I think whenever someone says “I respect people who have done it, but it’s not for me,” they are speaking from a place of fear. I WISH I could find it in my blog, because years ago, I wrote the same thing. I was too scared that I was SO out of control, that I had to even THINK about weight loss surgery. Me, no way, I could do this on my own. If only, when I first thought about it years ago, I went for it.

Anyway, back to the story. Not one woman in their story, had weight loss surgery. It hurts a little, that we’re still kinda stereotyped. I wrote about how it was a dream of mine to be in people’s half my size issue. On their cover this year, they wrote, No Gimmicks, No Surgery. Count me out of that one too! lol

Dr. Arya Sharma writes:

Not that we lack “success stories” of individuals who have lost hundreds of pounds, often through drastic caloric restriction and heroic doses of exercise. But overwhelming scientific evidence shows that very few of these folks (if any) will manage to keep the weight off. (Unfortunately, weight-regain stories seldom make the columns of newspapers and covers of magazines – thus skewing public opinion on just how feasible and sustainable significant weight loss actually is.)

People, I have lived this! That is what led me to weight loss surgery. I couldn’t keep up with this anymore. Does this make me weak? No way. It makes me smart. I tried the other way COUNTLESS TIMES, and it’s EXHAUSTING. Traditional dieting exhausted me to surgery, and I’m so glad. I feel like a have a chance now.

I have reached out to a few publications, wanting to share my story, and hopefully one day I will. I feel empowered. I feel I have been through a lot, and actually learned a few things, and some insight on to what we really think.

I once thought, I was overweight because I liked food, that was it. Yeah, I like food, but there are other reasons why I eat and ate all the time.

So the article is out now. Go and take a read. It’s good.

My next post, I need to write about Whitney Thore in her new series. Based on the trailer TLC promotes, cannot stand this woman! You love your body so much, yet you call yourself a “fat ass”, and cry. UGH! Anyway, that’s for another post!