Well, once again, I start off apologizing for NOT blogging for the last 2 months! I just don’t know what my problem is!
So, let’s see. A few weeks ago, I had my gallbladder removed. That went fine. I was off for about a week. Went in around 8am and was home around 6. Unfortunately I spent 5 hours in recovery. They said I bit the breathing tube as they were removing it and swallowed fluid, which made my resting heart rate too low. They were going to keep me overnight, but decided I should be ok. Recovery was fine. Just now, a few weeks later, I am experiencing constant lower stomach cramping and what I think are gas pains and bloating. I’m not sure really, if that’s what it is, but I’ll keep an eye on it and go see my doctor. They say without the gallbladder, people have digestive issues, so it could be that.
So, as of this morning, I weigh 190.6! woah. Total loss of 155.9 since surgery in April. Below is a screenshot of my handy dandy app! See what else it says down there? That would be OVERWEIGHT! Not OBESE Class 1, or OBESE Class 2, but just overweight! :)
The things that excite us! I told Marc that obese people get excited by being just overweight and being in the lovely ONEDERLAND!
Christmas was good this year. Quiet. We had dinner at my SIL’s house who, really, you all should thank for this entry.. lol. She’s always trying to get me to write. Anyway, it was good. I ate a little of things, no dessert, and really, enjoyed not feeling like I did last year. A lot of people hadn’t seen me, so I was showing myself rather than hiding myself like I did last year. Below is a pic from 2012, and 2013. Also, one of Marc and I, and my nephew and niece. Couldn’t get one with both of them still!
I am still keeping my calories around 700-800 daily. Some people think it’s too low, but I find it works for me. Still pretty strict with my food intake, but testing things out a little. I had a few bites of pizza a few days ago, chinese food for dinner for NYE, a werthers candy. I’m still very scared to eat junk, so it’s these little tests that will hopefully give me some confidence. It’s typical bingeing mentality. But I have to learn to realize I can have a bite and not binge, or fall off track.
I’m really VERY proud of myself. I have tuned into my brain for the first time in my life. I’m not perfect. I ate a yogurt the other night at 4am. I knew I shouldn’t, but I did. I also knew why. I was up, and actually a little hungry. The other night, I went to the movies with my friend, and she was getting popcorn. I had already decided to smuggle in a starbucks latte which I was excited about, and I said to myself, maybe I will get a protein bar too. I went to the store for something else, and I didn’t get it. I had to think about it though. I didn’t really need it. I identified that I only wanted the bar, because my friend was getting popcorn, so I should have something extra too. I got my latte, and loved it, and it fills me up, so I really would of been eating just to be eating while watching the movie. A couple times, I’ve brought food up with me to watch tv, then realize, I’m full, and I don’t really need to eat it, and bring it back down to the fridge. And trust me, I still fight with myself, telling myself to eat it, no don’t, eat it, bring it downstairs, etc.
New outfit. Size M top (I’m usually L-XL) it fit big, and size 14 plus jeans from my bin of old clothes. I think these jeans were last worn about 8 years ago. Excuse the bathroom in the back.. lol They had a nice full length mirror! :)
While going through my clothes bin the other day, I found these jeans. Size 13/14 from Suzy Shier. I was SO excited when they fit. I was shocked really. I remember the day I bought them, after losing a lot of weight about 9 years ago. I ran downstairs to show Marc. I usually wear longer tops, like the one above, but I thought this was a good comparison of before surgery to now. My body is not perfect, and never will be. I have loose skin, a tummy, but I really could care less. I feel like I weight 100 pounds.. lol I’m so elated, I can’t even describe it.
I was looking at an article about a weight loss success story. The headline was NO SURGERY, NO PILLS. Like it’s a bad thing. It made me think. Surgery is not an easy way out. It is a tool. I didn’t really get it before surgery. It helps me to not overeat. I still do everything else. I remember thinking when I first looked into surgery, how it wasn’t a sure thing like I thought. I still have to decide chicken or fries. Fruit or chocolate. Exercise or not. For me, it’s been a HUGE help and I only wish I did it 10 years ago. I am SO proud of my decision to do this. I was risking my life, my health, by unnecessarily going on the OR table. It was 16 months of appt’s, waiting, getting analyzed and figuring out what life may or may not be post surgery.
I am looking forward to hopefully losing 35 more pounds. I just want to be able to go shopping anywhere and be a normal weight, and then I will enter something I have never done before. Maintenance. gulp.
So that’s about my update for now! Thank you all for staying by me, when I’m not writing! I’ve been blogging for over 10 years. I go in ebbs and flows.
And, what would a picture post be without Gunther?! My baby bear! Him and I going to get a tea after our morning walk.
I wish you all a great 2014! xo