Merry Christmas everyone. It’s over. My Xmas was good. Got lots of cool stuff. I have to go to work today. Went shopping yesterday. It’s 5:39 am now and I just got up. I feel I should write an entry.
Yesterday I crashed big time. 186.6 this morning. It’s like all the days of food finally got to me and I binged big time. I had leftover Xmas dinner, chocolate, cookies, cake. I was pretty good Xmas Eve until today. I don’t feel guilty. Is that wrong? Kathy is going to be so mad at me. I went shopping yesterday and I was not in the mood. I was feeling kinda sad. I was feeling a little lonely. I didn’t really feel that great either. I had my breakfast, ate some greek food at the mall and by the time I got home, really wanted to eat. My parents discouraged me a little bit, but kinda made me feel, well if you want, just have a little something. It’s not their fault. So I did it. So now all I can do is forget about it and be good. I went to bed last night and my stomach was really hurting. The funny thing is, I think I got it out of my system, cause I don’t really want to eat any of it this morning. Hopefully that’s a good sign.
I bought some running shoes yesterday and some sweats for the gym. I will go on Jan 2, and get my membership info.
Okay, well, not in a big entry mood, but wanted to get the binge off my chest.
Hope everyone had a great holiday!
in the lunchroom here at work, every day there has been a new plate of cookies. Oh My God. Not fun. Yesterday there was two types of candy canes. I am not lying, that I walked by those things like 20 times, and thought about having one each time. I was just eating lunch with 2 tupperware containers of really good looking squaresand the two boxes of candy canes. I looked at the stats of the ccs yesterday. 9 grams of sugar. 13 carbs. Not so bad right? One candy cane. BUT would it really just be one? I was also thinking I should have some crackers that are here also. I feel I have a loss coming. If I cheat, the loss will not come. This is tough. Im sure everyone knows, just because you’ve lost weight, EVERYDAY is a struggle. Last night I went to the Mandarin again. I did pretty good considering where I was at. I was up this morning of course to 183, which sucks, but at least I know what its from. So I was sitting at the lunch table thinking about how I would feel if I had that candy cane. Id feel like crap and feel really guilty. I suppose this is not the time to get lenient. I have DAYS ahead of me with NOTHING but food. I have to be strong. Thats why I thought Id write this entry, to get my feelings out. Now, I know Im not going to have that candy cane. Why would I? It would create way more harm than good. It wiould taste good for the 10 minutes eating it and I would be guilty for about 10 hours. Last night I had mostly protein and vegetables. I had one piece of starch (won ton soup) Ate, the first piece of pasta in the broth and then looked at the other one, and I thought for a second, and I put it down and said, Im not going to have the second one. I had no bread left, so why should I eat bread? I had a small chicken dumpling and that won ton. (Both of these things I have never had and wanted to try) and I did well in moderation. I stayed totally away from the dessert table. Even away from the sugar free desserts. What have we learned? I cant just have One..lol
Okay well I should go back to work now. I hope everyone has an awesome holiday and dont eat too much..lol
Just a quick update. Im still here. Been very busy it seems, or maybe nothing to update..Well, I did fit into a 13/14 at Jacob the other day!! lol
Weight this morning 182.0. Pretty much fluctuating around there. Doesnt look to me that I will be meeting my goal of 175 by Xmas. Thats okay, starting January Im joining the gym and will be adding that to the mix. All the food is coming in the office. Been excellent though excpet last week when I overate cheese (no crackers-but cheese)lol
Okay, well back to work!
I was down this morning to 182.4. Holy Crap! We did measurements last night and I was down 6″ in the last 10 pounds for a grand total of 81″ lost!
My lowest I lost 3 years ago was 91.75. I beat that now with 92.1! Im in 36 jeans now. When I buy 34 jeans, I will SERIOUSLY fall over.
I love this time of the month because I always drop. Officially lost 90.6 now. Yay. Im okay but still every day there is always something to improve on. I am less than 10 pounds heavier than my mother. That is unbelievable. I said to Kathy yesterday that although this has been hard work, this is the weight I have dreamed about since I was 15. I started my first diet at around 9 or 10. I have spent my life dieting. I am now 27, weigh 183 pounds, bought my first apartment, gotten my OCD under control. This year has been pretty good. On that note, things are never perfect..lol I am still single and that’s cool with me. The right man will come into my life one day.
I think I found the gym Im going to join. It’s a small gym right across the street to where I will be living. That way, It is closer to home and it’s in a plaza, so parking will not be such a big deal. The one I was going to choose, was in a mall, and the parking is horrible. Also you have to climb a ton of stairs to even get to the gym. So those were kinda turn offs. It seemed like such an effort to actually get there.
So that’s it. I now get to buy my 90 pound charm. This has been a long 15 pounds. The next one will be 105 pd Charm. Now that seems totally unbelievable.
