I’m FAT…for now!

It was so nice of everyone who commented on my last post! People are reading! LOL Really, all the comments were very thoughtful and it made me smile, that is for sure!

Amazingly, yesterday morning I was 198.2. Don’t know how I pulled that one out. Luck maybe, TMO, regardless, I’m very happy. Yesterday was great until I met the girls for dinner. I had a steak and asparagus, and some harvest mix at the movies. Not in the plan. So I got back on the wagon this morning, and so far so good.

The end of the challenge is this week. Well, I am behind a few. They said if I complete into January (the first week) that it was fine. I can’t believe I will be in LA in about a week. SO exciting! One more time when I have to reign my eating. I cannot throw caution to the wind all the time if I am ever to get my wedding dress on.

My wedding is coming up. May 22, 2010. My maid of honour is my friend Miranda. We have been friends for about 15 years, since grade 9. My 2 bridesmaids are Laurie, who I also have been friends with since grade 9, and Heather, my sister (well sister-in-law). It was hard to choose, because I have 2 other very special people to me. My friend Laurie, and Arpy. I wanted them both, but since it’s a small wedding, and Marc is only having 2 groomsmen, I had to shorten the girls. I will be asking Laurie and Arpy to do a reading at the church. I just want them to know that they too are special to me!

Anyway, we are going bridesmaid dress shopping on Sunday and we are going to stop and try on my wedding dress. I don’t imagine it will fit any different, but they all want to see it. So, let’s hope there may be some progress.

So that’s about it. Just staying low today. May take a rest day with exercise today. I also am trying to sync Marc and I’s iPhones with the new mac. That is proving to be a pain. I also have to run out to get a spa filter for my dad. That’s about it for me! I don’t wanna be done with Xmas holidays! I still have 5 days left. Wow, it’s gone fast!

Sometimes when I read others blogs, I see lots of comments. Sometimes even 5 impress me. I don’t think I get 5 comments very often, so I’m wondering, who is out there reading? Leave me a comment! Show yourself! :)

Well, I threw caution to the wind yesterday and ate whatever the F I wanted. I don’t know why, but I feel like I don’t even care. Today I was fighting with the fact of eating for one more day before I start my diet again. Reluctantly I am going to start today. I was 203 yesterday morning and Im sure if I weighed today it would be 205. It’s amazing the ups and downs on this journey. You’d think I’d have it together by now, huh? So I’m going to do the plateau breaker for a few days, maybe a whole lot longer, but I guess I have to get through at least one day, right? Also I haven’t exercised in 2 days, so I have to get that in today, and I so don’t want to do any of it, but I have to…..

That damn 200 is back. I have been struggling. I was 197 a few days ago, and am back to 201.2 this morning. I feel chubby today. I do. It’s amazing what a few pounds will do for you and how you feel. I am seeing Kathy tonight, and I have lost some control again. It’s so frustrating. Those who are readers, know I am a very jealous person. I get jealous when I read that other bloggers are doing well, because I am not. Is that bad? It’s been my personality forever.

I feel good, but sad that I keep cheating and gaining weight, only to lose it again, then regain. I think after the holidays, I’m going to do another plateau breaker to give me a head start. I do well on that thing. I don’t know why I do well when I restrict everything so much. Might not be ideal, but I need to see results, especially before LA on Jan 7.

Ok, well I hope everyone has a healthy and happy holidays and a happy new year, if I don’t write before then!

I’m feeling pretty good in an old shirt I took out of the “archives”. I wore a sweater over it, but it’s nice to take those old clothes out again. Weight yesterday 198.3.