Day Two

I am so tired. Gym this morning, and it was tough but once I was up and awake, it wasn’t so bad, although my butt is starting to hurt already. Work has been good. Been steady, but not totally busy, which is good. They took care of most of the stuff while I was gone. I had emptied my email box by Monday night.

Sooooooooo it is no secret that I have been eating whatever the hell I desire for the last 2 weeks. So this morning was the first time I weighed myself at the gym since my last workout 2 weeks ago. 237.2 – I thought wow, only up a few pounds. Maybe building all that muscle really IS helping. I get on the treadmill and do my warm up and wait for Ashlee, and Im thinking to myself, is it possible it was 224, not 234? No, It can’t be. Well it was. I gained 13 pounds in less than 2 weeks. How do you like that? Just sitting here I remembered the litre of ice cream I got at Basking Robbins on Saturday to eat after I ate 1/2 of a medium pizza. And why was I wondering why I gained this much weight? I must of went and bought Cadbury Creme Eggs and Mini Eggs about 7 times, each time buying 2eggs, and 2pkg of mini eggs, plus all of the goodies at the hospice… surprise I guess.

I ALMOST crashed yesterday for sure. I was absolutely starving yesterday around 2:30. Stomach grumbling hungry. There were mini cinnamon buns in the office, and I debated just having one to fill the void. Then I got a little excited thinking about WHAT ELSE I could cheat on later on. I went back and force on that a little and then thought, Ill just go to Starbucks and get a latte (There is a new one up the street from work). When I was there, I also got a yogurt cup with granola. 4g fat. 280 calories (I thought too high) which I noticed later on. I would of not picked that if I read it better. Anyway, I was a little bummed at that, but oh well.

When my mom was at home the Monday we found out she had a few days, I was lying with her, and I said, Mom, when you are in heaven, can you make me skinny? She was in her “funny” stage and says very slowely…..Welllllllll, Jackie, I don’t know if I have that power. Now, my REAL mom would of shot back, Of course. lol

I know it is only Day 2, but I kinda feel quite positive. I don’t like to say that because its easy to feel motivated in the beginning. I like to think that my mom is up there, guiding me and making me do well. She struggled with weight her whole life, and knows what it means to me. So hey, if it helps me to think that, than go for it.

7 thoughts on “Day Two

  1. I love the way you think… rest assured she is watching you luv…

    I am finding some strength through you Jackie so thanks for the inspiration.

    How are you finding working with a trainer?

    Glad you are staying positive. I am sure you know you have all of us to boost you anytime you feel like your mood is slipping!

    Have a great evening ~ xo kat

  2. i hate waking up early to exercise but once its done, i feel much better and i can cross it off my to-do list… i think the more you’re in a regular workout schedule, the eating will fall back into place too… :-)

  3. I’m SO glad to hear that you’re tired from your workout! Way to go!

    And you know what? Those darn mini eggs and cream eggs are going to KILL me. Absolutely kill me. I am addicted to them…so you aren’t alone, my dear.;-)

    I still haven’t had a cheat-free day yet. Tomorrow….(yeah, yeah, yeah – but I gotta keep believe it’ll happen one of these days).

  4. I can’t think of a nicer way of memorializing your mom than making your life a healthier one!

    Keep up the great work!

  5. I hate Cadberry Creme eggs! That white gook inside is so heavy and and sugarie!! Although, I do love McFlurrys. I like the cookie and creme ones.

    When my husband has been sitting down to a bowl of ice cream, I’ve been snacking on Creme Savers. They’re really good. 3 of them have 1 gram of fat, but to have one isn’t too bad and it really curves my craving.

    They way you are thinking is not selfish. Its natural. I think there are a lot of people who take their parents for granted and it’s hard to watch for the people who have lost a parent.

    My husband’s Mom died almost 2 years ago, completely unexpected. If I’m aggravated with my Mom, he just shoots me a look and it really hits me and makes me think how I’d feel if I were him.

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