I am so tired. Gym this morning, and it was tough but once I was up and awake, it wasn’t so bad, although my butt is starting to hurt already. Work has been good. Been steady, but not totally busy, which is good. They took care of most of the stuff while I was gone. I had emptied my email box by Monday night.
Sooooooooo it is no secret that I have been eating whatever the hell I desire for the last 2 weeks. So this morning was the first time I weighed myself at the gym since my last workout 2 weeks ago. 237.2 – I thought wow, only up a few pounds. Maybe building all that muscle really IS helping. I get on the treadmill and do my warm up and wait for Ashlee, and Im thinking to myself, is it possible it was 224, not 234? No, It can’t be. Well it was. I gained 13 pounds in less than 2 weeks. How do you like that? Just sitting here I remembered the litre of ice cream I got at Basking Robbins on Saturday to eat after I ate 1/2 of a medium pizza. And why was I wondering why I gained this much weight? I must of went and bought Cadbury Creme Eggs and Mini Eggs about 7 times, each time buying 2eggs, and 2pkg of mini eggs, plus all of the goodies at the hospice…..no surprise I guess.
I ALMOST crashed yesterday for sure. I was absolutely starving yesterday around 2:30. Stomach grumbling hungry. There were mini cinnamon buns in the office, and I debated just having one to fill the void. Then I got a little excited thinking about WHAT ELSE I could cheat on later on. I went back and force on that a little and then thought, Ill just go to Starbucks and get a latte (There is a new one up the street from work). When I was there, I also got a yogurt cup with granola. 4g fat. 280 calories (I thought too high) which I noticed later on. I would of not picked that if I read it better. Anyway, I was a little bummed at that, but oh well.
When my mom was at home the Monday we found out she had a few days, I was lying with her, and I said, Mom, when you are in heaven, can you make me skinny? She was in her “funny” stage and says very slowely…..Welllllllll, Jackie, I don’t know if I have that power. Now, my REAL mom would of shot back, Of course. lol
I know it is only Day 2, but I kinda feel quite positive. I don’t like to say that because its easy to feel motivated in the beginning. I like to think that my mom is up there, guiding me and making me do well. She struggled with weight her whole life, and knows what it means to me. So hey, if it helps me to think that, than go for it.