It’s over…

Well, she is gone. She died this morning at a few minutes after 5am. My dad called me this morning at 4:30am, and I went right over. She died as my dad and I were holding each hand. My brother didn’t make it in time, since he is farther away than I am. She died very peacefully, and finally after this 2yr ordeal, it is over for her and us. I will miss her terribly. I feel like she is my life. It seems surreal that I am even writing this. It doesn’t seem real. So, goodbye my mommy. I love you soooooooooo much. xoxo

26 thoughts on “It’s over…

  1. Jackie I am so sorry. My heart goes out to you and your family. Your mom put up a good fight, and I’m sure that even though she couldn’t tell you, it meant the WORLD to her that you were there during her last moments.

    Many prayers are being sent your way. There will still be painful times ahead, but you now have the sweetest and strongest of guardian angels that will be with you always.

  2. Jackie,

    I am so sorry to hear about your mom from what you wrote on your blog she seemed like a beautiful and precious soul. My prayers are with you and your family during this time. I am sure she will be remembered with a smile.

  3. Jackie,
    My thoughts and prayers go out to your family. I’m so sorry that she’s gone. She was such a special woman. I’m glad that you were able to be with her in her last moments. ((HUGS))

  4. I am relieved that her suffering and pain have ended, and so glad that she was able to be home and that you were there with her. I know it meant a lot to her, and it must have meant the world to you, too.

    I am so sorry for you and your family. This must be unimaginably hard, but you’re strong (even if you can’t feel or act strong right now, which is fine) and it seems like you have so many wonderful memories of her, and so many of her qualities will live on in you. She was so proud of you, Jackie. I am thinking of you.

  5. jackie~

    i am so sorry about your mom and even though it has been a difficult time – being there w/her and knowing she’s a peace is a true blessing… i’m sure she knew you were there… thank-you for sharing such a personal journey with us on this blog and know that you are in my thoughts and prayers… ((( HUG )))

  6. I’m so very sorry, Jackie. The one thing that you’ll always carry with you, is your close relationship with her. She was like your best friend, it seems – and that’s so incredible. She isn’t in pain anymore, and she’s finally resting in peace.

    I’m sending you lots of strength during this difficult time. And know that you’re supported here.

  7. Jackie, I am so very sorry for your loss. I am thankful that your mother is free of pain and her soul can now rest. What a blessing you were there with her when she went. Please try to take some time for you in the coming weeks, it is very easy to get lost in the shuffle. You are in my prayers.

  8. I’m so sorry for your loss. Be strong, especially for your dad, who needs all the support he can get right now.

    Just think that your mom is no longer suffering and is finally at peace.

    You are in my prayers, God Bless.

  9. I’m so sorry; you always spoke so lovingly about your entire family, I can’t imagine what you are going thru. My thoughts and prayers are with you.

  10. Auntie Jackie, Something special happened yesterday. Angels came from Heaven and took your mom. Now she will be your angel in Heaven, free from pain.

    I love you very much Auntie Jackie.

    Love, Kyleigh

  11. The sun came up this morning;
    It wasn’t very bright.
    My dark mood casts a shadow;
    It’s hard to see the light.

    We all have just one mother
    Her life on earth is done,
    The emptiness and loss I feel
    Make it hard to see the sun.

    Tomorrow is a brand new day;
    May the hurt and sadness lighten.
    I will remember every ounce of love,
    And see the sky will brighten.

    Gone is not forgotten;
    Her love remains behind;
    She has a new direction.
    Love knows no space or time.

    I will always love her.
    She will care for me from above.
    She will send me hugs from heaven.
    To remind me of her love.
    **********************************
    I wish you well Jackie ~ xo

  12. What very special “blog” friends you are to Jackie. Thank you so much for all your thoughts and prayers in the loss of Jackie’s Mom and our beloved Carol. She was a wonderful, caring person and I too will miss her terribly. She was one in a million and a very special part of our family.
    Jackie’s Auntie Peg

  13. Jackie, I know you don’t know me. I’ve been reading your blog, off and on, for about a year or so. You’ve always been a big inspiration to me, even with your struggles.

    When I last read, before you made your journal private, I remembered reading about your mother. I happened to check out your journal tonight, and it made me cry to read about your mother passing away.

    I am SO sorry for your loss. Losing someone that close to you is extremely rough. I haven’t lost my mother, but I lost a woman who was more of my mother than my mother to me, my maternal grandmother, last year. It was all very sudden. In the beginning of May, she was okay. By the middle of May, she was having chest pains off and on. By the end of May, she had passed away from a massive heart attack and end-stage emphysema.

    It totally threw me for a whirlwind because she’s my everything. My confidant. My cheerleader. My life. And I’m still reeling, almost a year later, from it. I feel like I’ll never have anyone love me as unconditionally as she did/does. But I know it was her time, and she’s better off now.

    I’d like to tell you that it gets easier, but there are times where it hits me all of a sudden that she’s gone. Like when I finally got my own place this month. I cried for the days leading up to my moving into my apartment because she isn’t here to be proud of me or see me growing up. I cry when I think of getting married and having children because she won’t be here to share those moments with me. And sometimes, I forget that she’s gone. And I still dream of her almost every night.

    But I know she loved me with all of her heart, and she did everything for me that God put her on this earth to do, and I will see her again one day.

    So, I just want to say that I wish you the best, and I am so sorry for your loss. Don’t be afraid to let yourself grieve. Feel all of the pain and sorrow that is a natural part of the process. Doing that has been helping me heal more than anything else ever could.

    God bless you and your family.

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