Super short update here. Things are decent. Not wonderful, but not awful. I am not feeling the best. I feel so fat. In a size 14. Really wish I was back at that 8/10. I have never felt like this throughout my whole journey. I have gained about 20 pounds or so. I have been staying off of the scale. Last week I did a night check, and it seemed to be steady. But I am not proud of my eating AT ALL. I see the clinic psychologist for the first time on Wednesday. Looking forward to that. I find myself bingeing much more lately and it’s very distressing. I look at my reflection and I’m not happy right now. Such a mindf@$k this all is. I’m really scared I will keep gaining, but I don’t want to restrict either, OR stay at this weight.

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