Update

Hi everyone. So Wednesday morning, so a few things have happened. She was still really out of it. We got through Monday night ok. We then made a call about getting her into this hospice in a town nearby. For those who don’t know, a hospice is bascially a place people go to die as comfortably as possible. The lady came out to the house yesterday at 1, and she thought she should be admitted, and an ambulance came at 3:30pm. This place is really beautfiul. Really nice decor, nice people working. There are 10 rooms in the house. She has a private room, and my dad and I slept there last night. I think I am coming home to sleep tonight. She was up all night talking. She wondered if this was a false alarm because she is feeling much livlier. I said that to someone, and she said, we see that sometimes. They are in a new environment…give it a few days. When I went over to the house on Monday, the first thing I noticed is her stomach. It was rock hard and quite extended. That is the liver expanding, and getting bigger. So she is very delirious. We have not much idea about what she is saying most of the time. We do get sentences and stuff, but bascially it’s just alot of stuff that doesnt make sense. I don’t think she is in pain, but it’s just so sad. She started crying last night, saying things, and she told me that I was always there for her when she needed me, and I told her the same, and it’s just awful. She knows what is happening, and I don’t know if I like that. Maybe that is making it harder. So I don’t know. She is bedridden. Can hardly move her legs, cannot walk, and was in pain everytime someone tried to move her. She did say a few times how nice it was at this place and that she was glad that she was there. So anyway, that’s the scoop. Thanks for all the comments. Just when I thought this was bad enough, I now realize it’s going to get much worse and harder.

7 thoughts on “Update

  1. You are a strong woman Jackie and you will make it through this. Just be there for her and your father and brother. Enjoy your mom and let her know she is an amazing woman and that you love her and will love her always.

    My heart goes out to you. Take care of yourself.

  2. It is absolutely never easy to endure things such as this Jackie. I am very proud of you for how strong you already are, but remember it’s ok to be weak. I’m glad to hear that she likes where she is staying and that she is well taken care of. We are all thinking of you.

  3. Jackie – don’t underestimate your ability to get through this. You’re so strong and courageous. At the same time, don’t be afraid to lean on your father and brother during this difficult time.

    Your mom is so lucky to have a daughter like you.

  4. You are so strong, Jackie. I have you and your mom in my thoughts constantly. Please know you can call me at anytime. I love you so much and want you to know that you are not alone through this. I am here for you, we are all here for you.

  5. Jackie, I’m so sorry. I don’t know what to say…there’s not much anyone can say.

    My Mom’s twin sister died in 2002, she was sick for a year. Both of my sisters went up to room a couple of days before she died and told her how much she meant to them and all the great memories they had. I wasn’t strong enough…I couldn’t deal…I went up and talked to her about random things and tickled her arms…she used to love that. Just make sure you tell her everything you want to, which I’m sure you already have.

    Its just I really regret not doing that.

    You’re in my thoughts!! Hugs

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