Workout Woes

My chiropractor recommended I get a body ball, because I amĀ  not doing my stretches he has given me. One of the reasons is, it is hard and I really hate getting on the floor. It hurts and it’s hard to get up, and well, get down on the floor. So he recommended the ball. I found on one sale yesterday for 8$ (score).


Stopped after work to fill it up at the gas station. It is much much faster than using the hand pump.

I started searching for a body ball DVD, and stumbled across this little gem. Gaiam TV.


I signed up free for 10 days and then after that, it’s only 10$ a month to get unlimited streaming of exercise videos and other stuff. They also have Jillian Michaels, Leslie Sansone and tons of other things. Last night I did 10 minutes of stretching and 10 mins of body ball cardio blast.

This morning I got up, and did a Walk Away The Pounds video. I put it on my ipad, and used the appletv to put it on the tv. It was perfect! There are other ways to watch them too. On your computer, iphone. Sounds like a deal to me!

I have to thank my dog for helping to get me up in the mornings to work out. He gets up at 6 constantly and wants to eat. I always hear him and wake up. Today it was 5:20, finally at 5:45 I got up to work out. I tried to talk myself out of it. I went to bed with the alarm set for NOT working out. But I did it, and I have to say when I was in the shower, I did feel good and proud of myself.

Last night I watched Extreme Weight Loss. I was motivated by the exercise Meredith did. She reminded me of myself and her goal weight was 155, which was always my goal weight. She loved running. I don’t love it, but I liked it. I felt that I just can’t get where I need to go alone. I know it may be my only option, but if only I had a trainer to get me started like they did. I contacted my old trainer Ashlee last night. She just replied back actually.

I don’t know what I can afford, but I know I loved working out with her. She pushed me. I believed in myself after she forced me to do things I didn’t think I could do. I’m scared of strength training, because, well it sucks, and it hurts. My body has changed since I was even 30. It hurts and now I have back pain to deal with, so every move I make, I am aware that my back is sore. Even this morning, walking in my living room, my back was sore the whole time.

It is hard to keep going and motivate yourself when you are scared and you don’t think you can do anything worthwhile physically.


I found this online. It is exactly what I feel. I don’t have the answers yet. I do know I am trying to find them and trying to trust the process and workout even though I don’t want to, and I am not sure if I am doing the right thing.

I also think about excess skin and how strength training is important. I’m making it hard, when really it shouldn’t be, and then I compare myself to what everyone else is doing, and truthfully I compare myself to myself, and think I should be running, when I can barely speed walk for long periods of time. I then think walking isn’t enough or that I need to find something that I love (which is doubtful).

So that’s what is going on. I did it today, so that is great!

One day at a time…


One thought on “Workout Woes

  1. Hi Jackie,
    A long-time reader, just wanted to say hi and congrats on your successful surgery! Glad to hear that you’re feeling pretty good. Just wanted to say that I think, if you can afford it, a good personal trainer will make all the difference in the world. I have always battled with my weight but it wasn’t until I found an amazing trainer and committed to going that I was able to get to successfully lose. I’m down to 152 (from a high of 211 two years ago) and feel amazing. I think the trick is finding a trainer who is also part therapist so you can work on your head issues at the same time as your glutes! Also, by finally strengthening my back and abs and improving my posture, I no longer have the chronic back pain I had as well.
    Hope you are having a great day. Give that cute dog of yours a cuddle for me.

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